My Valentine...

I have just spent the last hour trying to find an easier way to upload photos onto this blog... I was unsuccessful. And I am not happy about it. It takes way too long to add pictures on blogger. I know there is a better way, and I will find it... eventually. But right now it doesn't seem important enough to worry over anymore.

Instead, I will write about Valentine's Day. Last week it appeared that my Valentine's Day would be a sad and lonely one... But, it actually turned out to be very special. Pixie and I had been talking the last part of the week. We actually had very good conversations about our relationship and what we wanted and didn't want. We have decided to take it slow... sort of step back and try to start over differently. Can it be done? I guess we will have to see. I hope so. I want to do everything in my power to work on this relationship and make it successful. For two reasons.... The first, and most important, reason is that I love Pixie and I want our relationship to last. I want us to work. I want us to have a secure and happy relationship--- one that will set a good example for our children. The second, and much less important reason, is that I want to show everyone that we can do it--- we can meet in the middle and find happiness doing it. I suspect that we both have friends that think we are crazy to try again, and I want to show them that they are wrong. This whole lesbian (yes I am stereotyping-- but its true) idea of always looking for the next someone to come along... to bail when times get hard and move on to the next one because it's easier is a crock... I don't want to be one of those lesbians. I feel in my heart-- in my gut really, that Pixie and I are meant to be together. And this relationship is worth fighting for.

Back to Valentine's Day... Theresa came to my house on Saturday night to hang out with the kids. She spent the night and got the kids to help clean the house on Sunday morning--- that was my Valentine's gift from them. A much appreciated gift I might add. On Sunday night I got a babysitter and went over to Pixie's house for a date. She was going to make me dinner... I have to admit that I was pretty nervous. I mean this was a proper date and we were just trying to reconnect after a very stressful time. When I got there, she looked so beautiful. When I went into the dining room, I was taken aback... Pixie had set the table for a romantic dinner for two! There were even candles and tiny pink roses. It was so pretty. I can't remember anyone ever making me such a special Valentine's Dinner... or ever such any dinner like that... A real date. The dinner was delicious... and we were both a bundle of nerves. Actually, it was really sweet how we both felt like it was a first date after having been together for 7 months... maybe we can go back. Pixie even made chocolate dipped strawberries for desert. It was perfect.... Just perfect. What a wonderful Valentine's Day....