Last night I went to dinner and drinks with some friends. I found a really sweet babysitter--- I always feel worried when I leave the kids with a new babysitter, but she turned out to be very nice and the kids really liked her. She was previously an au pair in Chicago--- too bad I don't have an extra bed room, I would love to have an au pair. That would solve my child care issues.. Oh well... maybe someday. Anyway, it was good hangin' with my friends... We went out to Bellisima after dinner. As usual, the whole time I wondered why I was even there... I did see some old friends from my Pre-kids years though. A couple I once hung out with are now trying to get pregnant. They are using the same fertility clinic I used--- that was nice to hear. It kind of made me feel a twinge of sadness though... It made me remember that anticipation and excitement I felt when I was first trying to get pregnant with Big A-- I miss that feeling-- maybe its my biological clock ticking away.... Sort of sad. I am 39 years old, and my childbearing years are almost behind me. I can't really believe I will soon be in my 40's. I still feel so immature in so many ways... Well, in any case I am so excited for them! I wish them luck and love and happiness.
Oh yeah.. Emily Salliers (sp?), of the Indigo Girls was at the bar last night... She offered her cigarette to me for a light... Yes, I have been smoking these last months, and yes I do intend to quit. Too bad Missi wasn't there-- she's a huge Indigo Girls fan. Although Amy Ray is her favorite... Anyway, Emily was hangin' with her girlfriend--- who seemed awfully young to me.... That was my little brush with celebrity last night... Otherwise, I was quite miserable. I ran into some church people who asked where Pixie was... That made me sad. Good times.
Today I am hung over. Oh joy. Why do I even bother?
Last night my sister-in- posted something on Facebook that was so sweet.... Gabe and his family often have Movie night, or family night, or whatever you want to call it. The whole family comes together and spends the evening having family time. I keep meaning to do that... I would love to set aside one night a week for movie night or game night. I tend to leave the kids to play by themselves on weekend nights... I really should take the time to sit down with them to play games TOGETHER. We have about a bazillion games.... I need to really start spending quality time with them.... quality free time. That is going to be one of my goals for this year. In fact, let me get off of this computer and spend some time with my kiddos right now.
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