Blue And Gold Disaster....

Ah, what to write....  Well, tonight was the Cub Scouts Blue and Gold Dinner.   The kids and I rushed over to make it on time...  It was a pot luck, and fortunately, the Tiger Den, of which D is a part, was only responsible for bringing dinner ware...  I chose plates and cups.  So did almost every other Tiger family it seemed... there were enough plates there for an army...  But the dinner was nice.  The food was good.  The kids acted fine through the meal.  It was during the awards ceremony that things went downhill...  First Little A began to wiggle in her seat, then D started to wiggle in his, soon they were both acting just obnoxious...  When I fussed a Little A, she proceeded to cry, loudly.  And D just blatantly ignored me and talked back...  That was it...  I had had it, so we got up to leave...  As we were walking out, Big A started talking loudly and dancing around.  That made me livid.  She was the only one behaving, then she had to blow it...  So, they have all lost "Movie Night" this weekend.  Also D and Little A got spanked when they got home--- Little A because of her crying fit, and D because he said "It's all your fault Mom" on the drive home, THEN told me he hated me when we got to the house!!!!  Ah, yes, the joys of Motherhood...  I think I will just go to bed now, and hope that tomorrow is a better day...

My Laptop Is Back.....

Tonight my laptop is working again!  It got some weird virus on Friday after I downloaded a virus protection program....  Today I finally talked to a computer guy who told me to uninstall the program, and just like that I was able to access the internet again!  I've been using my desktop for the last few days, but I just don't like typing on the keypad, so I haven't posted.  I guess that's part of the reason.  The last few days though I have been keeping a private, written journal... And if you think I seem insane on this blog, you should read that... I can't even reread it, I begin to wonder if I should be committed... ;)  But, I think I will continue keeping a private journal.  It really lets me clear my mind. 

Not much has been going on of interest in this household...  I'm just looking for more work, the kids are just going to school, and the dogs are just trying to tear each others throats out...  Same thing as usual...  I'm trying to pull myself out of this funk I've been in lately...  Today I've been feeling pretty good.  I got a good bit accomplished--- not everything I wanted to do, but enough to make me feel better.  I was on a cleaning roll this afternoon, but, as usual, once the kids go to bed, I instantly become exhausted.  So now I am vegging on the couch, and most likely I will go to bed shortly... 

I have been reading Anna Karenina, and I am hooked.  I don't know why I suddenly want to read these old Russian classics (I just finished Crime and Punishment)  Maybe it is because they are free on my e-reader....  But they are great!  I probably should have read these things in High School, but I was too busy partying and dropping out... So I guess I'm making up for it now...  Oh well, whatever the reason, I am going to sink down on the couch a read a bit.........

Regret....

Ugh.  I'm trying to recover from a very long night...  I don't think Vodka and I are friends anymore.. Ha!  Surprisingly I was able to stay awake after one drink, but I ended up having a few too many...  I wish I could say that I was enjoying myself, but I wasn't.  Getting drunk is just not my thing anymore.  And today I am paying the price for it.  Live and learn.  Next time I will politely decline the invitation and curl up with a good book instead.  That is precisely what I want to do right now, but I can't.  There is way too much to be done around here.  I have a feeling though, that I won't be accomplishing much at all today.  My head is muddled, and my stomach is churning... 

The children are in great moods!  Big A spent the night at a friend's Birthday sleepover, and the other two spent the night at Pixie's with me.  It was quite a treat for them to spend the night away from home.  Unfortunately all of them got to bed late, and all of them woke up early.   I expect to have some grouchy kids on my hands in a few hours when lack of sleep catches up with them... 

Okay, let me attempt to get up now and go through the motions my day....  Ooh, I can't wait for bedtime tonight! :)

Questions....

If at first you don't succeed, try, try again.  Okay.  I've got it.  I understand that I have to keep trying to make the best of a not so great situation.  I need to be thinking positively and use my time and energy constructively.  I don't need to let myself spiral into a "doom and gloom" outlook on life.   I need to keep my chin up and keep pluggin' away to reach my goals...  Blah, blah, blah.....  I know all of this and I am trying, but I keep getting a gut feeling that things are going to get worse before they get better.  I found out some things today that increase my worries.  Things I wish that I didn't know.   Things that may or may not directly affect me, but my gut says they will.  And it seems that my gut has been trying to tell me some things all along that I haven't been listening to.  But how can I listen when I feel so trapped?  That is the problem that I am having.  Everywhere I turn all signs seem to keep pointing me in a different direction, but that direction isn't clear.  And how do I get where I'm supposed to be going if I keep running into road blocks?  What is my purpose?  How do I find out?  These are all questions that haunt me at night and keep me from sleep. 

I want to ask for help, but there is no one to help.  And I don't even really know what I need help with.  Life.  That's what I need help with.  Fear.  I want my fear to be taken away.  I want to find where it is I'm supposed to be and what it is I'm supposed to be doing.  I want to find the energy and the will to do it.  I'm running on fumes.  I've got so many things to worry about at once that I don't even know where to begin.  So I feel myself shutting down and hiding my head.  I can't do this.  I have to pull myself out of it and go on, but it is getting harder and harder.  And I feel so alone.

Let me again try to write a positive.  Today is another beautiful day.  The air smells so good, the sun is shining, the colors seem bright.  I may not be able to get outside and enjoy it, but at least I'm making some money.

Things Seem To Have Gone To The Dogs...

Well, I just broke up another fight between my dogs.  You have got to be kidding me....  I do not need yet another thing to worry about.  Yesterday Ella, my doberman, appeared to have started the fight, but today Daisy, the mutt, was the aggressor.  Yesterday I got bitten on the thigh trying to break it up... Ridiculous.  I don't have time or energy to deal with this.  Seriously.  I feel like just letting them kill each other next time.  I am so over animals.  I know this sounds strange coming from a Vet.  I just mean that I don't have the time to deal with so many right now.  I need a break.  Big time. 

I am not in the best mood today.  I woke up feeling crappy-- I'm getting yet another cold.  And I had a job interview which went well, but I found out that the hospital will not be needing anyone until MAY!  That is not what I need.  I need more work now.   I have a telephone interview this evening, but I am not looking forward to having to keep the kids quiet while talking on the phone.  And, frankly, I am not really in the mood to be witty and attempt to impress a potential employer right now.  I just do not seem to be getting anywhere fast these days...  Every time I turn around something else seems to be falling apart in my life.  Sheesh....  God, Give me a break already!   

When I got home from the interview, my head was pounding, so I took a little nap...  Unfortunately my head is still pounding and now I'm irritated at the dogs.  Grrrrrr.  Someday soon I hope to write a happy post.  Someday soon I hope to have some good news to report.  Let's see, what positive thing can I write about?????  Oh, okay, while I was lying on the couch napping this afternoon, I had the windows open...  The nice spring like breeze coming into the house felt great!  There is that.

THREE Big Kids...

Today is another beautiful day!  The weather is warm, the sun is shining, Spring is in the air!  I have already gotten a couple of things accomplished around the house, but after I finish this cup of coffee, I am going to bust ass and get the house cleaned BEFORE the kids come home from school!   We have a busy afternoon... Little A has a therapy appointment-- she is going to be tested for ADHD.  This is just a formality really...  there is NO doubt in my mind that she has it.  And it is getting worse.  Last night, at dinner, she was more hyper than I have ever seen her act....  It was insane!

Part of her hyperness was due to excitement...  She lost her very first tooth yesterday!  She was so cute about it!  She got up from her desk and ran around in circles in somewhat of a panic when it fell out!  She was horrified at the amount of blood involved, and fascinated at the feeling of the gap left in her mouth!  She immediately put the tooth under her pillow, and went straight to sleep last night!  This morning she was rewarded with a five dollar bill and a bracelet from the Tooth Fairy!  She was so excited and proud!  She wore the bracelet to school to show all her friends--  I just hope she doesn't lose or break it.  I already called the teacher, who said she would keep a close eye on her for me.  I can't believe that my baby is old enough to have lost a tooth!  She is 5 1/2 now, and it doesn't seem possible that she can be this old!  No more babies for me....  That makes me kind of sad.  It is time to take the remaining "baby" toys and give them to charity.  Last year, I gave away all of the baby furniture, and a lot of the clothes...  Part of my heart breaks knowing I no longer have a "baby" in the house.  But, it is exciting to know that she is growing up to be a strong, healthy "kid".

I suppose all women go through these bitter sweet feelings when their last baby starts to grow up...  I have been feeling my biological clock ticking away since I have turned 40, and I know that my baby making days are over...  Still it is sort of sad that I will never feel the excitement of giving birth again or nursing an infant.  I miss those days...  Aw, oh well, now I have 3 Big Kids that are full of wonder and exploration.  I have Big Kids that can have intelligent conversations with me and are excited about growing up!  What a different world it is from the baby days...  Soon I will be dealing with puberty, preteen/teen angst, and boyfriends/girlfriends, and all the other scary issues involved with raising children.  The baby/toddler years were the easy years...  I now have to learn how to be a real grown up, because my most challenging times as a parent are about to happen.  Yikes!  It is exciting though!  I hope I can meet these new challenges and successfully raise these "Big Kids"!!!! :)

A Split Personality Post...

I have just been having a bit of a nervous breakdown.  Things could be worse, and I know this.  But I wish things were better.  I keep waiting for them to get better, but one thing after another seems to keep piling up.  I have been trying so hard to keep myself in a positive space lately.  It just seems as if things keep happening to challenge my positive outlook.  Not that my outlook is even entirely positive.... but honestly, I have been trying...  Really, I have.  My mind keeps going back to something I read recently...  Here is the quote:  “Do you understand, sir, do you understand what it means when you have absolutely nowhere to turn?” (Marmeladov, remembered by Raskolnikov)

I keep hearing it...  I keep feeling that way.  I have nowhere to turn and no one to turn to when it comes to my responsibilities as a Mother.  Just myself.  And that is a lot of pressure....

Okay....  It started this post yesterday evening and never finished it.  I went to bed early, overslept, got my kids to school late...  But I feel somewhat better today.  Not as gloom filled.   So that is a good thing.  I have two job interviews on Wednesday.  Maybe something will come out of those.  I feel like I can be pretty productive in the house today, and the weather is beautiful outside....  I think I will open the windows and let in some fresh air...  Hopefully, this afternoon I can get out in the yard and get something done outside as well...  No sense freaking out again like I did yesterday...  I just need to take one day at a time and focus on the positive!   Yes, today is beautiful! And I will focus on that! :)

Communtiy Action...

The kids are eating lunch, and I'm taking a break to collect my thoughts.  The morning has already been busy--  D had to go to a local church to celebrate Scout Day with his Cub Pack.  The girls also went to the same church to sell Girl Scout cookies with their troop.  Thank goodness they all meet at the same church!  Every time I go to that church, I wish that it was just a bit bigger and had a younger congregation.  It would be so convenient to be able to go to there every Sunday.  The kids would get exposure to religion, and I wouldn't have to drive so far to get them there! :)  Oh well, I just don't feel comfortable with the make up of the congregation...

Well, I took a little break from this post to go to a community action meeting for my neighborhood.  It was very informative and I now have fliers to pass out to my neighbors and a petition to get them to sign.  I'm giving the kids a little potty/water break, and we are gonna hit the streets to canvas the neighborhood!  There was a pretty good turnout for the meeting, and everyone seemed pretty stoked to help out in any way that they can.  I hope we get a lot of support.  I really hope this works.  I really don't know what I will do if we get redistricted...  Private school is not an option for me... Neither is homeschooling...  I guess I will just have to try to get my kids into a magnet program...  If that fails, then what?  Move?  How?  I suppose I could try to rent my house for a while, as selling it just doesn't seem to be a viable option right now.   I don't know.  I just need to focus on the positive... keep up hope that this thing will not happen.  Do everything I can to fight to keep my kids at Laurel Ridge....  That is all I can do right now.  Now, let me gather my kids and hit the streets....

Stop....

Last night was the third night in a row of insomnia.  I was certain when I laid my head on the pillow last night that I would be out in no time--- I was exhausted.  But apparently my brain just didn't want to shut down, so I tossed and turned until well after 2 am.  The result is that I have been exhausted again all day.  Fortunately work has been pretty busy, and I have been able to keep my mind off my sleepiness.  The day is winding down, and all  I want to do is go to bed.  Alas, there is much to do before bedtime though.

D has Cub Scouts tonight.  I am not really looking forward to it.  I admit it.  I would much rather put the kids to bed early and get to bed early myself.  I am definitely not planning to attempt anything productive tonight.  I just want to stop thinking for a while.  I hope I can manage it.

Will The Worries EVER End?????

Well, it is Midnight, and I can't sleep.  This is the second night in a row...  Last night I was worried about work.  Tonight my worries are much worse.  Not only do I still have worry about making ends meet, but now I have to worry about whether or not my children will be able to go to the same school next year!  I got blindsided by the news today that the school superintendent is recommending several school closings (that I already knew), but now she is recommending that MY NEIGHBORHOOD be redistricted to a school that has a terrible reputation!  Seventy children from Laurel Ridge will be sent to a school that has a terrible academic ranking!   I am just shocked and very very upset by this.  My children love their school.   And so do I.  In fact, for months I have been saying that Laurel Ridge is the ONLY reason that I would hesitate leaving this city.  Seriously.  I love the fact that the school is small, and the parents are so involved and close knit.  The principal and teachers all know the kids by name.  I can't even believe that I am having to worry about this.  I have been sitting in front of the computer for hours now reading the School Board's Proposal and trying to make sense of this.  I have been researching the Magnet Programs and Theme Schools and trying to figure out if I can get my kids into one of those...  I have been trying to formulate an email to send to the Board Members to convince them to vote this proposal down... 

Tonight I went to the PTA meeting that was held to discuss the Proposal.  The PTA President urged us to all send emails and attend the Public Board Meetings that will be held in early March.  She urged us to canvas the neighborhood to encourage other homeowners to petition the Board against this action (after all, this redistricting is going lower the value of our homes).  I will definitely get involved.  I can't sit still and watch this happen without putting up a fight... Right now though I am so tired and overwhelmed by it that I just don't know what to do or think.  That's the problem, I can't stop thinking and worrying...  I'm not even making sense right now.  It is gonna be a long night.

Writing About Nothing....

Hm.  I was feeling pretty productive this evening... cleaning and so forth, then I made the mistake of eating dinner.  Food is always my downfall...  Every time I eat a meal, I immediately get sooo sleepy.  I had intended on skipping dinner-- I wasn't even that hungry. But then again, it would be rude to feed my children and not sit down at the table with them.  Family time, etc and so forth....  So I ate, and now I'm feel like a slug.  Oh well, so much for being productive.  Heehee. 

I am sitting on the couch surveying the living room.  I changed the furniture around a bit and I think I like it much better.  At least for now.  The room seems more open and roomy.  There wasn't too much I could do with it because it is a very small room, but the few changes I made are pleasing.  It definitely seems less cluttered.  I wish I could say that about the rest of my house. 

Boy, I feel like writing more, but I just can't think of a thing to write about.  Nothing exciting going on in this household tonight.  The kids are in bed--- although I keep hearing Little A's voice... grr.  That girl!  That's all I can say --- She is a tough one.   Yep.  She's my "difficult" child. But she's so darn cute!  Okay.  Nothing to write about and it's time to go discipline my child.  Sheesh, let me get up and get to it...

Time For Some Action...

I'm trying to wake up and attempt to be productive this morning, but it isn't coming easy.  My body feels melted into the couch.  I'm moving slow today.  I'm not sure I have completely gotten over the virus that got me on Thursday.  My stomach still feels a bit off and my energy level is low.  Of course, having no energy is nothing new for me... I seem to live in a perpetual state of sluggishness lately! Haha!   I have the desire to get things done today... clean house in the am, and get out into the sun this afternoon, but my body just doesn't want to cooperate...  It wants to just lie here and go back to sleep.  I have been sleeping like a brick lately.  I've had the strangest dreams, but for some reason I can't seem to remember them when I wake up...  I'm feeling the tug of introversion also.  Last evening I dropped Big A off at a friend's house for a Birthday sleepover, and it took all of my mental energy to sit down, have a glass of wine and chit chat with my friends.  I was supposed to go over to see Pixie last night, but I couldn't muster up the energy to do it... all I wanted to do was lie down and go to sleep.  Strange.  Hopefully it is just remnants of being sick and not depression trying to creep back in.  I don't feel depressed, but I do feel stressed.  Stressed about finding more work, and stressed about what the future holds.   I'm trying to think positively, but sometimes it gets to be a little bit more that I can take.  Maybe that's why sleep is so enticing.  When I'm asleep, my world is in suspension... my mind stops thinking and worrying.  All is peaceful.

The other curious thing that I noticed, yet again, is that I absolutely feel physically terrible after having just one glass of alcohol now.  I drank two glasses of wine at Trish's house--  and the only reason I had two was because her sister refilled my glass as soon as I had emptied it.  Within five minutes, I felt terrible--- almost hung over.  I can't really explain it.  It is a sort of exhausted, nauseous feeling...  It happens every time I take a drink now.  Instead of feeling the nice relaxed buzz that I used to feel, I feel sick and want to go to bed.  WTF?!?!?   This has been going on for a couple of months now and really just came out of the blue.   I can't figure it out.  Maybe I've developed and alcohol allergy!  Haha!  I wonder if that is even possible.  I have to say though that I am not happy about this.  Not that I want to be a wino or anything, but I would like to enjoy an occasional drink with my friends now and again.  The idea of it always sound good, but once I have drink, I immediately wish that I had abstained.   Something is definitely going on... I just wish I knew what has caused this change in me.  And I wish it would go away.

Well, enough focusing on the negative (although my Mom would think my inability to drink a positive).  This day appears to be turning into a beautiful one!  It is pretty freezing out right now, but the sky is blue and the sun is shining.  The ground is a bit drier that yesterday, so maybe I can get some yard work in later this afternoon.  It is time to start planning my garden for real.  Time to clear out the weeds and get the the ground ready for the Spring.  I have a problem area in the front yard--- a bed that has gone to weeds every year since the Maple tree died.  I haven't been able to quite figure out what to do with it.  But this year I plan to make it an edible garden....  I want to mix edible flowers,bushes, herbs, and vegetables in this space--- make it both attractive and functional at the same time.  That is my plan.  First I need to rid it of all the dreaded grass and weeds, then draw up some plans.  The other idea I'm toying with is making the hard to mow hill in my front yard a wild flower garden.  The kids may not be too happy with this idea as they often play on the hill, but it is such a pain to mow during the summer...  It would be nice just to have it full of beautiful wild flowers all summer long.  I think it gets enough sun to make this possible.  That little project will require a lot of tilling, however, and I am not really looking forward to that.  We'll see.  I also need to secure my fence, so that my crazy dog will no longer be able to jump it.  I have kept her tied to the front porch when she is outside, and she has RUINED my front flowerbeds.  So those I will have to fix as well.  Then, of course, there is the jungle that is the backyard...  AND the vegetable garden to plan, as well.  The amount of work that will be required to get my yard back into shape almost seems insurmountable, but it can be done.  That is if I can get enough sunny days when I am not working.   That seems to be the big problem.  This rainy weather.  I'm ready for it to end!!!!  Okay, now that I have lazed around and written about it, time for me to get up off my butt and DO something about it! :)

Twenty Four Hours Of Hell.....

I have had a very rough couple of days.  Thursday morning I woke up and felt like a train had run over me.  As soon as I tried to sit up, I knew I was sick.  Very very sick.  The kind of sick that makes getting out of bed next to impossible.  The worst part was that I had to work.  And I really really needed to go in to make some money.  My days have recently been cut due to the "slow season" and I can't afford to miss any days.  I managed to get myself out of bed and somehow get the kids off to school--- I barely remember it.  Then I made it, barely, to work.  I, somehow, got through my first two appointments, and was sent home after two hours.   I can't blame them really...  I was worthless.  I could barely raise my head off the desk.  I haven't felt that bad in a long long time.  All Fall and Winter, I have been battling one cold after another, but this was different.  This was like the Flu.  I went back home and fell fast asleep.  Marie-Lynne picked up my kids and kept them away from the house all afternoon.  When Pixie called about 5:00pm to tell me that Marie-lynne was on her way back home with the kids, I felt like crying.   I knew I couldn't even manage to feed them and put them to bed.  I was feverish, achy, nauseous, cramping, and just plain miserable.  Thank God Pixie said she would come over and feed them for me.  I really don't know how I would have managed.  Every single noise the children made almost made my hed explode... It was like they were screaming right in my ears.  I could still barely get up off the couch.  As soon as the children were in bed and Pixie had gone home, I feel back into my coma.  Basically I slept all day and all night.   I never did throw up like the children had, but I felt like it the entire time.  Just like the children, I woke up on Friday morning and felt almost 100% better!  It was crazy!  I was almost giddy with happiness!  The strangest little virus ever--- It hits you sooo hard for 24 hours, then is gone, just like that!!!!

I went to work yesterday and felt , for the most part completely better....  I was just still very tried and extremely dehydrated, but I could think and function.  My appetite wasn't quite back to normal, in fact, I'm not sure it is even this morning.  But compared to how I felt on Thursday, I feel like a million bucks!  When I got home last night, all I wanted to do was sleep.  I fed the kids soup and sandwiches for dinner, and put on a movie to keep them occupied before bed.  We watched Hoot, a very cute little movie about some kids who are trying to save some little ground-dwelling owls.  Finally, I got the children to bed, and promptly fell fast asleep myself.   I feel much better today, although I have yet to really get going.  I have so much to do today, but I am enjoying this lazy morning immensely.   I think I may actually make these children some breakfast soon and try to be a good Mommy! :)

Grouchy Mom Needs A Hobby.....

I just lost my cool big time with my kids.  I feel bad.  I way over reacted about the way they were cleaning up the playroom.  I need to take a minute to calm down.  I just don't understand.  Why can't they just put things away where they belong, instead of stuffing everything away in totally the wrong place?????????  Why?????   It is crazy...  Really just crazy.   Anyway, I suppose I better go supervise now....  I will write more later....

Okay, the children are tucked safely away in their beds, and I have some peace.  After my little temper tantrum at them, they started cleaning up nicely, and now we have a decent playroom again.  I still feel a bit guilty though because I lost my temper.  We had a nice dinner, then finished the book we have been reading...  The Twits, by Roald Dahl.   Wait...  are we supposed to underline book titles or put them in quotes?!?  I can't remember....  I never was much for grammer (or whatever it's called).  Ha!  Anyway, it was a funny, very crude little book.  All of Roald Dahl's stuff is...  Very politically incorrect and rude.  Maybe that's why he was one of my favorite authors growing up...  I had never read that one, so it was a treat for me as well.

I have decided that I need a hobby... besides sitting on my butt cruising around on the internet.  Yes, I should take up drawing again or something.  I used to draw all the time years and years and years ago.  It has been at least 15 years since I have even attempted to make a serious sketch...  I doodle all the time though...  Especially when I'm upset or can't sleep.  In fact, last night, after my two cups of coffee (big mistake), while I was wide awake and wishing I could sleep, I started doodling.  It worked like a charm.  Well first my hand went numb- somehow I don't think that's a good thing- then I got very sleepy.  Haha!  Anyway, maybe I should pick up a pencil sometime and get out my sketch pad.  Who knows, I may like it....

A Rainy Tuesday...

I just got finished reading the children a story and putting them to bed.  It amazes me how every night, after our story, I immediately get exhausted too.  Well, I'm having a little cup of coffee to combat this feeling.  Hopefully it will give me the boost I need to tackle the laundry.  Yes, the dreaded laundry.  Always the laundry....  Tonight, however, I can turn on the TV in my room and watch something on cable if I like.  I am very excited about that!  The DirecTV guy came today and upgraded my box and installed a new line into my bedroom.  This is the first time in twenty years that I have actually had a television in my bedroom.  Seriously.  The last time I had a TV in my room, I was going to SCAD... 1991.   Wait, maybe I had one when I was living at my Aunt and Uncle's house after dropping out of SCAD (still 1991), I'm not sure...  In any event, it has been a very very long time since I have had a TV in my room.  So this is all very exciting...  Now, if I could just get my room straightened up and get the clothes put away, I could lay in bed and watch the tube like the rest of America...  Heehee.

This day was very strange.  The weather was horrible.  Cold and rainy all day long.  After having a taste of beautiful Spring weather on Sunday, this weather seems all the more worse.  I am over Winter.  Now.  I am ready for the sun and warm breezes.  I'm ready for flowers to bloom and grass to grow.  I'm ready for blue skies and green leaves on the trees...  I am ready to get out and work in the yard.  I want to get my hands dirty and work up a sweat.  Nothing makes me feel better than working outside.  I have always loved it.  My favorite summer jobs in college and Vet school were doing landscaping.  Picking weeds is cathartic to me.  Yes, I am ready for Spring...  I saw this video today and cracked up... This woman is funny!!!   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GdpDw73GLmU


I think the other reason this day felt so strange was because I am used to working on Tuesdays now.  Instead of being at work, I was cooped up in my house  with a sick little girl, again.  This time it was Little A.  At about 2 am, she climbed in bed (read couch) with me and promptly vomited all over me.  Yes, this is one of the joys of Motherhood.  She recovered much quicker that Big A did last week though.  By mid afternoon she could eat again.  So that is a plus.  She seems pretty much back to normal now, so she will be off to school again tomorrow.  I just hope D doesn't get his "bug."  Although, I don't think he will.  He has a pretty strong immune system when it comes to stomach viruses.  Big A asked him today why he never gets sick.  His answer was " Because I'm a Russian!"  Haha!!!