Happy New Year...

It is a New Year!  Hopefully the start of a good one.  I think it will be.   I am ready for a fresh start... A new perspective... Change to occur.   Change has already occurred.   Yesterday was not the best of days.  Things did not work out as planned or expected.   I was not happy with how it all turned out, but the past cannot be changed....  So I am going to look toward the future with hope.  I am not sure exactly what I am hoping for, but I know that peace and happiness are at the top of the list.  I have to accept these changes, and I will embrace and be thankful for what I do have.   I have the love of my children, family, and friends.   I have a comfortable life and job.  I have life.  I am alive, and I am thankful for that.  I have freedom to make my own decisions about my life, and I am thankful for that.   Now is time to focus on the love that I do have and not the love that has been lost.   This is a time to forget about the "What ifs..." and look forward to the "What will be..."  I have no way to know what the future will hold, but I have to have hope that it will be something better.  I am going to hold onto this hope and accept these changes in my life.  It is time to move on and let go of old anger and hurt.  It is time to forgive others and forgive myself...  I do have love and I do deserve love.  I am okay today.  And I am going to be okay tomorrow and the next...  

This year I am going to try to always look for the positives.  This may take some practice for me, because I am not used to being a "glass half full" kind of person... :)  But I am going to practice it, not matter how hard it may be at first.  Yesterday was necessary, and I know this.  Despite the pain that I felt and still feel, change must occur.  I know the tears will come back, and when they do, I will let them come.  Sadness and tears will creep in from time to time, and I will feel it and let it go each time it comes...  Because time will heal.  Soon the tears will come no more.  And that is the positive... Time does heal.  And someday I will look back on the last day of 2010 and not feel pain.   It will be just a memory with no emotion attached.  The important thing now is to embrace each new day and find joy in it.  Happy New Year.