Wow. I was just looking at a friend's page on Facebook, and it occurred to me how fast time flies... She has a daughter the same age as Little A, and I was thinking how grownup the little girl looks. Then I realized that my little girl will be 5 years old in just a month. FIVE! How can this be? She still seems like such a baby to me!! It is strange how sometimes things like that can just hit home in a shocking way. Of course I know she's going to 5, I say it all the time... but the actual realization of it tonight took me by surprise. Weird. It just seems so crazy that it has been half a decade since my baby girl was pulled from my body... Before long it will be a whole decade, the a quarter of a century, and I will look up and see a grown woman in front of me. And I will wonder where all the time went.
I realized today that I spend the majority of my time looking forward to the weekend. Because, of course, I get two days in a row off from work. The problem is that each weekend means another week of my life has passed me by... a week that I have spent the majority of my time looking forward to its end. That just doesn't seem like the best strategy for enjoying life.... It seems like most people spend most of their time mindlessly working to make a living... it seems like life just passes by without notice. Unfortunately all of the things that I truly love to do, and that truly make me enjoy life, do not have a thing to do with my job. Bummer. I think I need to find a way to enjoy each day... how, I am not sure. My current lifestyle is not cutting it at all. Not one bit. What to do... hmm. This one will take some work to figure out. A career change? Probably not, I don't have a clue what else I could do to make a living. I just don't know. I do know one thing, I need to find a way to BE ALIVE every day of the week. And enjoy living each day, find passion in life, instead of just plowing through the week in hopes of something fun to happen at the end....
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