Baby Soft Hair...

My son has baby fine hair... he just stumbled out of his room, half asleep. He tripped on his way over, picked himself up with out a sound, and climbed onto the couch beside me. I rubbed his little head and felt his baby soft blond hair... and watched him suck his thumb. He is so beautiful in the morning--- he is quiet for a few minutes, and that makes all the difference in the world. In the early morning, he is my sweet baby boy. I can visualize him as a tiny baby, all soft and cuddly... oh it is too bad that I didn't have him then... he needed to be held and rocked and loved... instead he learned to rock himself, and he learned to yell at the top of his lungs to get attention.... Oh, poor baby boy.....

I talked to his pediatrician yesterday. We are going finally get him on some ADD medication. He wants to try him on Concerta first... I guess I will start it this weekend, so I can watch him and monitor for side effects. Loss of appetite is the main side effect that I worry about--- I can handle mood swings ( I'm used to that with Big A), and insomnia... but that little guy can't afford to start losing any weight. He is already teeny tiny.... I hope it works. I think he will do much better in school if it does, and maybe I will get some of my sanity back. I once said that I would never medicate my kids... but then again, I said I would never medicate myself. I have learned from experience that medication is sometimes needed. Definitely in my case, and most likely in his.... My fingers are crossed!