Withdrawels...

Yikes.  Today is the fourth, or maybe fifth, day without cigarettes, and instead of getting easier, it seems to be getting harder... I've been through this before though...  I'm starting to get the tight chest and the cough.  Soon, I will be hacking up black flecked phlegm.  Yum.  I've quit smoking 4 times before...  Once when I was 18...  I picked it back up right after my Dad died in 1995.  I quit a year after that..  I started again in 2000... after a break up.  That time I quit after a year as well.   And then I started again in 2009... after another breakup, of course.  Haha!  Now I'm quitting because I am disgusted with it, and I need to set a better example for my kids.  Hopefully this will be the last time I ever quit...  Hopefully, I will never start again.  Hopefully I will actually be successful...  I think I will.   Yesterday was the worst day of cravings so far... I was extremely hung over, I was extremely depressed, and I was extremely lonely.  And I resisted the urge to smoke.  I am very proud of myself.  So that is that.  I'm gonna do it. :)