Friendships...

I am sooo tired today...  I had terrible insomnia last night.  My intention was to go to bed early and get a good night of sleep, but obviously that didn't happen.  I have been fighting a horrible cold all week long, and it seems to be getting worse again.  I stupidly took a non drowsy decongestant last night...  Thinking I would still be able to sleep, and not feel groggy in the morning like I do when I take NyQuil...  But I think whatever was in it just hyped me up....  I was tossing and turning until after 2:00 am...  Even when I did finally fall asleep, I did not get a good night of rest at all.  I feel like a truck hit me today...  And to make matters worse, I am at work with zero appointments for the day...  I can barely keep my eyes open. Sheesh.

I also have a million things on my mind...  Big A's birthday slumber party is tomorrow night, and my house is a wreck, I haven't bought a thing for the party, and I have dinner plans tonight that I can't (and don't really want to) cancel.  Tomorrow is also a Girl Scout meeting that I have to help lead...  Too much to do in too short of a time...  Story of my life...  Not to mention my head is stopped up and my nose is snotty...  I would give just about anything to take a nap right now... Haha! 

I had planned to get the house clean and party stuff ready at the beginning of the week while I was off work, but this cold hit me hard...  I spent Sunday, Monday, and most of Tuesday laid up in bed...  Oh well, it is what it is...  The party may have to occur in a dirty house... Kids don't care anyway.  I just hate for their parents to see the place a filth hole.   But I can only do so much.   I need to not stress about it.  I've been stressing too much lately...  I always do.  I just need to get done what I can and let the rest go....  

This week has been one of the strangest weeks...  Mostly from my own making I suppose.  As I posted before, I have recently lost two people from my life that I considered good friends, but the funny thing is that I have also reconnected with some old friends that have been out of my life for a while now.  Even stranger is that they reached out at just the moment I needed them...  Life works in mysterious ways...  It has really made me appreciate my true friendships...  Especially T.  It is funny how she always calls at just the right time.  She always has... I really am blessed with some very good friends who I can always count on to listen and accept me for who I am... not for who they want me to be.  I think that is one of the most important keys to a lasting friendship...

I don't have a huge number of close friends... I never have.  But the close friends that I do have, I am very very lucky to have in my life.  Even after times of  losing touch, we can pick up just like before... no weirdness, no drama, no manipulation, no hard feelings.  We can forgive each other for our faults and mistakes, and move on from there.  No grudges or spite or games... 

So today, even though I am tired, sick, and pretty stressed, I am very very thankful for my true, lasting friendships.