Setbacks from Russia

Well, today I did not get good news from my agency. I called them again because they didn't return my call yesterday-- stalling, no doubt. The Russian consultant (or whatever she's called) said that the Ministry of Education in Sakhalin is being very cautious about allowing independant adoption because in the past families have not provided post-placement reports as they were supposed to. What I wanted to say is "Why the Hell did they ask for my dossier to be sent in the first place if they don't feel comfortable allowing independant adoption!!!!" I really am so sick and tired of all these roadblocks. I feel as if this adoption is not going to go through at all. I feel like I am getting the run around by my adoption agency, and I feel that Russia has no intention of allowing this adoption. That sucks!!! It sucks for me and my girls , but most of all it sucks for "D"!

I'm sure some members of my family will be happy to hear that I am running into all of these setbacks. It's funny that these so called "Christians" will be happy to read about this. They have not been supportive throughout this whole thing--and, in fact, have tried to take steps to keep me from adopting in the first place. It is truly a shame that at this time, I cannot ask these "Christians" to pray for my family and pray for this adoption to happen, because, obviously, my prayers don't seem to be getting through. And they wonder why I don't embrace their so-called Christian values... Don't get me wrong, I do not have anything against Christians-- real Christians that is. It is my understanding that Jesus was a man who urged his followers to be loving and specifically told them not to judge others. It is God's place to judge and forgive-- it is not man's place. I just have a problem with people who call themselves Christians and then proceed to lie (or embellish the truth) for their own gain and judge other people because of their race, religion, or lifestyles. I do not think that Jesus would approve. Jesus was not a hypocrite. Are you?

I know that I should continue to try to be positive and try not to let this setback get me down. But , obviously, it has. I am just so frustrated and worried about this. I will continue to pray and hope that we will soon bring this little boy home. That is all I can do. I also know that I should try to let some of the anger that I have towards my family go, but again that is hard. It is hard for many reasons.

Now that I have vented, I am going to try to stay focused on my goal and think positively. Anyone who happens to read this, I ask that you pray (or send good vibes, or whatever you want to call it) for us to soon bring "D" home. My girls and I would certainly appreciate it. Thanks.