Pluggin' Away...

I think it is a pumpkin vine...

Plants... Lots of them...

Baby Elephant Ears...

Oh, the joys of my life...  Yesterday at 5:33pm, I remembered that I was supposed to have been in traffic court at 5:00pm!  Needless to say, I panicked, grabbed the kids up and hauled ass to the recorder's court.  Thankfully, I didn't get another ticket while speeding there...  Meanwhile, my children were eyeing me with suspicion... asking things like "are you going to go to jail?"   Great.  I tried to explain to them that I was merely trying to keep from having to pay such a high fine and keep my points on my license... but inside I was worrying the same thing... After all, I was LATE to COURT!  Fortunately, no one seemed to notice, and I paid less and kept my points...  Yikes.  I'm still not sure Big A believes it was not that big of a deal.   She never seems to believe a thing I say now...  I think she thinks I am a complete failure as a mother.  She constantly comments on how forgetful I am.  Yes, I am well aware of my forgetfulness....  Thank you Big A.

Otherwise life is going along pretty smoothly...  as smoothly as my life ever goes along...  I've been working more, but still not enough to make ends quite meet.  I was up late stressing about that last night in fact.  I hate when insomnia hits me like that.  My mind will race in a million directions at once--- nothing making much sense.  I have had more anxiety in the past 2 years than I have had in my entire lifetime.  I'm over it.  I am trying to make changes to de-stress my life.. some easy, some not so easy, but I know these changes must be made, and for the most part I feel pretty good about things.  I have just got to keep my focus on MY life , My kids, My job, and not worry a thing about things I can't control.  My sanity is the most important thing... Not only for me, but for my children as well.  I have been keeping my feelings pretty well hidden from my kids lately, I think (other than the traffic court fiasco), and I can definitely tell a difference.  My kids seem less stressed with me less stressed.  Big A is still a tough nut to crack, but her moods for the most part have been better.  

I've been working in the yard a lot...  It is taking forever to get my yard back into some semblance of shape... but it is getting there slowly but surely.  Big A has been very interested in helping me lately, which is awesome.  We need to spend more time together.  The other two want to help, but their interest fades pretty quickly.   I am attempting to get my front flower bed under control... No easy task.  It was completely taken over by weeds and grass.  Seems like every time I clear it out, it rains for a few day and they are right back taunting me.  I have got to order mulch soon to fix this problem, but I planted some seeds in the bed on Monday and need to wait for them to sprout.  I hope they do.  The whole idea is to make an "edible" flower bed...  I did cave in though and plant snapdragons for Big A because she loves them (I don't think you can eat those).  I also planted some vegetables and herbs.  Since I don't really know what I am doing, it will be interesting to see the result.  Oh well, I'll keep pluggin' away at it.  At least it keeps my mind occupied.  Too much thinking is never a good thing for me! :)