In My Head....

I am in my head these days....  Maybe a little too far in my head.  I am finding myself just thinking and not doing... not talking to anyone.  I keep thinking that I want to reconnect with my friends, but I just don't have the mental energy to pick up the phone to call them.   I'm not depressed or filled with anxiety... or maybe I am and I have reached the point of numbness.  I feel myself shutting down.  Becoming more and more introverted.  I go through periods of this, I always have, but I'm not sure whether it is good for me or not.   I feel fine really, just sort of numb about everything.  I guess I would rather feel numb than overwhelmed.   I need to force myself to feel a bit more inspired though--- pull myself out of this perpetual tiredness.  I went to bed early and woke up late, but I am still exhausted.  I am beginning to worry about that..  It makes me wonder if my health is bad and I just don't know it....  I recently had some bloodwork done and it was all normal, but I have a general feeling of unhealthiness, and that worries me.  Maybe stress is just affecting my body.. but that is not a good thing.  Maybe I have internalized my stress.  Yes, that is what I suspect is going on.  I have pushed it back into my head and into my body....  I am tired of thinking about it, so I have stopped thinking about it... at least for today.  I'm not sure that this is the best approach to take, but apparently it is the approach I am taking right now.  I don't know if I should fight the numbness or just let it be for now.   Better than having a panic attack, I suppose.....