Tired...

I have been constantly tired lately.  Not just tired, exhausted.  I went to bed last night a 8:30.... And I STILL woke up tired.  As soon as I got home from work yesterday, I was fighting to stay away long enough to feed the kids and get them in bed.  Needless to say, I got absolutely nothing done that I wanted to do last night.  There is really no reason for my exhaustion... I mean I was busy at work, but not slammed.  I'm not feeling depressed either... just sleepy.  Very very sleepy.  Maybe I'm still sick.  I am definitely still coughing a lot.  But my head is fairly clear.  My chest just won't seem to clear up though.  I swear it is because I'm not smoking as much.  Maybe that's it.  Withdrawals...  That must be it.  I'm going to bed early so that I won't be tempted to smoke at night.   Last week I was thinking about it less... probably because I felt like shit.  But this week has been hard. And it is only Tuesday. Meh.  Well, I have been sticking to my 3 cigarette rule a day...  Actually I may have smoked 4 yesterday, oops.  But I'm almost out of them.  Then it is done.  Yikes! I'm kind of scared.  I hate feeling this way.  I hate being so addicted to something.  It's ridiculous really.  Well enough moping about cigarettes.  I've GOT to get up and get ready for work now...