A New Blog????

I have been toying with the idea of starting a new blog.  One that is totally unrelated and totally anonymous... under a different account of course.  Why? well I am constantly having to watch what I write on this one.  I have to try not to offend... it seems like I am frequently doing that.  I now have to monitor what photos I post and try not to mention key people in my life.... even if I use different names for them.  That can be difficult for me.  And it has made posting seem almost like a chore.  For instance, I want to post photos from my recent trip to the mountains, but in almost all of the photos of my kids, there are other people--- if I take the time to blur all of the extraneous faces, I will never get them posted.    Everyone has their opinion as to what I should write and post... frankly I am getting tired of hearing about it.   I have always said that I am an open book--- I have nothing to hide.  If someone reads my blog and thinks that I am crazy or that I am offensive, then they don't have to read it anymore.  But lately I have felt stifled and edited...  I am just not enjoying it anymore.  The whole idea behind this blog was to have a place to express myself---- not to entertain.  The blog is not just a place to share the adventures of my family, but it is a place to write about my feelings and impressions of these adventures...Some people say--- why not keep a journal then?  A private journal... well I do.  God only knows what people would think if they read that!  It would definitely change (or ruin) many of the relationships I have if that was ever made public.... perhaps I would even be sued for slander or worse... heehee.   Not that that many people read what I am putting out anyway.  I am not a writer.... nor do I pretend to be one.  I am just a single Mother who is trying to do the best I can in this crazy world.   And my world is crazy.. and stressful, and tiring, and sometimes fun, and sometimes not fun.   One thing for sure is that it can be very lonely at times.  I have limited contact with my friends... and my circle of friends has grown smaller and smaller over the years.  I have lately found myself losing contact with people who have been very important in my life, and I don't like it.  I can't really say why that is... I am not sure I even know why.  I know that sounds strange, but it is a good description of it.  I am not trying to enlighten people or write great stories or even entertain anyone other than myself.  I just write what I want to write about on any given day and send it out into cyberspace.   No real reason behind it at all.  Just something to make me remember that I do indeed have a life and it is real.  But now it is becoming a bit of a chore--- censoring myself and my feelings so that I don't offend or anger anyone.  Not fun.  So... I am toying with changing it up a bit.  Maybe I will even stop writing this blog all together...... but probably not.  I love this blog.  It has been a place for me to stay sane (or at least try to stay sane) for the last 3 years.   We will see.... meanwhile I will continue to write my deepest, darkest secrets and thoughts in my journal at home.... maybe someday I will publish it (anonymously of course) on the web---- bet I get A LOT more hits on that!  Anyway... enough for now.  I will try tpo go back and post photos  about our trip to the mountains later---- after I figure out how to censor them...... Bleh!