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What to write.... There is a lot that I would like to write about, but I'm not sure I can at this moment. This week has been a blur.... The only good thing about it was I treated myself to a massage on Tuesday. Last weekend was fun though.... My Mom came into town to watch the kids for me on Saturday night-- my 10 year Vet School Reunion. Since I had someone to watch the kids, Sheila and I went out to do some shopping and have dinner on Friday night. We had a really nice time. Saturday it rained ALL day! The kids soccer game was cancelled. Saturday night, I went to the reunion. Sheila went with me. I we actually had a good time... poor Sheila was a good sport about it! It was really nice to see my classmates and to catch up on all that has happened over the last 10 years---- Lots of kids have been born!

The rest of the week has steadily gone down hill... Tonight I feel like the wind has been kicked out of me. I'm not sure how to feel. Really I just feel incredibly sad. I wish I could be angry ( the reason doesn't really matter), but I can't. I just feel so so sad. Things have not gone as planned, and I can't change that. I really wish I could. I wish that I could change a lot of things. My Mom is right-- once something comes out of your mouth, it can never be taken back. It may be forgiven, but it is never forgotten. I wish the tightness in my chest would go away. I am so sad. It is depressing.

On a lighter note-- not really-- D's teacher stopped me in the hall the other day and asked me to start thinking about having D repeat kindergarten. I had expected this. I know that it is the right thing to do. He is doing much better since beginning special ed, but he is nowhere near ready for the first grade. So I mentioned to him, "hey wouldn't it be fun to get to go to kindergarten again next year?!" He was not into the idea-- he said that he should be in first grade next year. So there is going to be an issue-- I can see it. Well we will work it out I'm sure. It makes me sad though. If he had only been here when he was 3-- like he was supposed to be- he would not be having these problems. I truly think that he will eventually catch up to his peers.... We'll see, I guess.